Spring break has been a well needed break from school. I am so glad it came at the time it did. School really wears me out, but I feel restored now and will be refreshed for school on Monday, even though I don't want to go back at all.

I haven't done too much. I have been staying up late, sleeping in, hanging out with friends and Michael (a lot of Michael, but it's nice :]), reading Frankenstein, and listening to music.

I also bought some clothing. I bought some new shirts and dresses and such.

I am very ready for summer. I decided to get a job for summer and to save up money. I would like to take a trip somewhere... maybe. I need to practice my violin again. I really miss it, but I haven't taken time to pick it up and start practicing again. I also need to start exercising a bit, I have a belly and its gross.... really. I need to ATLEAST do crunches, but the best thing would be to do crunches and start running again and do leg and arm exercises, but I doubt all that will happen while school is going on. I need to find a good balance between school, staying fit, friends and family time, and me time (which would include playing violin, painting, taking pictures, being creative in some way), but it's hard to figure out the balance. I want to do so much, but I usually run out of energy or time.

Today I ate at Genghis Grill for the first time with Desiree, Kyle, George, and Stephanie. It was a lot of fun. I was a little skeptical about putting my own spices on the food and adding my own vegetables, but it turned out really good and I think I will be going there again sometime soon. Michael's cousin owns a Mediterranean restuarant. He took me there a few days ago. Mmmmm... Mediterranean food is soooo good, seriously. I love it and his cousins resturant has some very delicious food. :]

Well, I guess I don't have anything else to say.

Do you guys have any good books you'd like to reccoemend to me?

Thanks :D Bye!

This week has been very tiring, but I am very glad that the tiring part of school is over. I had to study my brains out (not literally... since I obviously had to keep them in there to pass the exam.. and to live..) for my Bio exam. It was soo much stuff to remember. Biology is a tough, tiring, tedious class. I am very happy I will NOT be taking it next semester. Anyways, I took my exam yesterday and, you know, I think I did pretty well! I can't wait to find out my grade. I hope it beats my last exam grade (which was a 93.. I think). Always score for higher! I won't know till... next week (via email) sometime. I also got my first assignment back from my Comp I teacher. I got an A :D! I didn't expect an A on my essay. Not that I didn't take my time on the essay or anything, it's just.. he seemed like a hard grader, I was getting nervous when he was telling us all about the criteria. He liked my writing :]. I haven't gotten my test results for Spanish II exam yet.. I think we find out today. I tihnk I did well on that too! Although this week was tiring, it was very good. I did well on my exams and I spent yesterday with Michael. He took me to eat. It was really nice of him :)). He's so cutee! And I am glad to be back with him. I don't think we should have ever broken up in the first place.

I am very happy that Spring Break is starting. I need a break from school... even though, I still have to do math homework, a math take-home test, annd study for the lab test, but atleast it's spring break.

It feels like summer outside, and I like it! Beach time will be soon I hope! :)

Thats all I have for now, bye!!!

I sit here
tears held in my eyes.

I contemplate the situation
I contemplate whats worth the risks.

I want to keep you here
Always in my life.

But you make my heart so nervous
You arouse my souls desire.

Afraid of jumping into things
Afraid of being hurt by you.
Afraid of letting go
Afraid of, theres just
so many fears.

The tears are building up
My heart is beating faster
My thoughts are racing.

What if I do this?
Will my heart be broken?
Will my eyes be sad
Will my life be different?

I can't handle this!
I'm terrified!
I'm--I need to rest
To close my eyes.
I need to think.

I need to hear you say
that everything is okay

I need to hear you say it
I need to know you mean it.

Just hold me close and tell me
the words I long to hear.

Just hold me close and be
be with me, by my side.


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Last night was a lot of fun. I went to the movies with Stephanie, Margarita, Nick, and my brother to see the new Alice in Wonderland (which btw, is very, very good so you should definetly go see it!). Stephanie is so funny! She cracks me up! I drove her to Taca Cabanna so she could eat something. Well she's talking to the lady and I don't remember exactly what everyone was saying, but Stephanie said "Yes Ma'm, I mean Sir." And the Lady says,"No you had it right the first time, its Ma'm." Stephanie says,"Ohh. Are you sure?" (hahahahahahah I was like =O Stephanie!). Then the Lady said,"Am I sure I'm a women?... Yes." (She sounded pretty mad and I don't blame her, but poor Stephanie. I didn't even want to drive up to the window!). The Lady was pretty mad, but it was a complete accident. Stephanie speaks before she thinks sometimes. It cracked me up though!

I've got some stuff to do today. I wish I didn't have anything to do. I have to get up and stop being lazyyyy and change so I can go to la libreria and study,study,study. Maybe if I study enough--Aw man!!!!!! I just remembered I have to turn something in today! sjkfhsjdfhlsj! Mann.... Well.. anyways... maybe if I study enough I today I won't have to spend the whole night studying. I want to hang out with my boyfriendddd. :)

I don't think I wrote anythign about the concert that I went to on the 25th? Well, It was awsome!! I saw Rebelution! They were so good live! This band SOJA (Soldier of Jah Army) played before them. They were really good also. I love them actually. I got a few CD's because Nick bought one and Michael burned me one (because now he likes them haha). As you can see from the picture, I was right in front in the middle. It was great. I was pushed around a lot, girls kept thinking they were going to take my spot, but... I'm tough. :] Well, if you guys are into reggae you should totally check out Rebelution if you haven't before and should definetly check out some SOJA.

I just felt like writing an entry today. I don't have much to write about though. I guess this is my cue to get off the computer and actually get things done. :[! Bye for now!

http://www.purevolume.com/soja

http://www.purevolume.com/rebelution

It's 2AM on a Thursday morning.
I sit here calmly,
while my thoughts
scramble for an arrangment.

I search for the right words,
but the words just gush out
like liquid between my lips.

I hold myself, controlled,
I keep myself, strong,
but around you
I am weak,
around you
I am exposed.

Is this the way
it's supposed to feel?
Is this,
no.

It's just 2AM on a Thursday morning,
I'm sitting here restless,
while my thoughts
scramble for an arrangment.

I am sick of everything being piled on top of me,
I am sick of everything being thrown in my face.
I'm letting myself go,
I'm letting myself be.
I can't fit into your mold,
I can't fit into your world.
I am who I am.
And that's who I am going to be.

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That basically says it.

I changed my major today. I am going to be a math major. I know you may be thinking, "Why??" Well, the reason is because I enjoy math, its challenging and I am sick adn tired of hearing about evolution everyday, all the time for being a Biology major. I don't really care anymore if you believe in evolution (although I stilllll think it's a silly, silly theory that should NOT be taught as fact). I don't really care if you believe that rock music is wrong. I don't really care if you believe that not reading your Bible everyday is wrong. I don't really care if you believe that gay marriage is wrong, or abortion is wrong (although I am personally against those, but I just honestly could care less what anyones oppinion is anymore).

We all have out own ideas of what is right and what is wrong. I still stand by certain ideas, but believe what you want. I'm sick of everything.

I am excited to be a math major though. I really do enjoy math! hahaha. That sounds nerdy... Idon'tcarethough!!!!!!!!

I am dating Michael now, mHmm. :) I missed him! So I'm glad we are dating again. No more breaking up. That's silly.

I don't have much to write about. I just wanted to express my changed attitude on things..

Bye!!